2017年11月24日 星期五

【第六屆】106學年度靜思語與我的生命故事徵文比賽_第一名_物治三_李慈慧_ Let us appreciate, be grateful for, and repay the love of our parents.

Flashing back, I could still reminisce the good, old time where my soul was still so pure and innocence as a kid. I was so small, with a bobby haircut and a bubbly personality. Mummy had her favorite red lipstick which matched perfectly with my red dress. Mummy was the only woman I looked up to, hoping that I could grow up as beautiful as her. I was 5 years old back then- and mummy was my idol.

As I grew up, mummy gave me brothers and sister as my companions. Yet, life was never a bed of roses for my family. My brother was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. I was too young to understand the pain and agony that my family experiences. “Perhaps, my little brother was gifted with full energy”, I thought to myself. I was 10 years old back then- and my mummy sacrificed to become a full time housewife.

Years passed, my siblings and I were growing up pretty quickly. I started to understand the value in everything around me- especially the value of money. I learned my math. To keep up with our fast pace growth, my mummy had to earn a living for us as well. She stopped wearing her favorite red lipstick. Both her hand became rough and thick, and her toenails cracked. She was constantly asking me to pluck out her graying white hair. Yet, she was still full of life and energy all the time. I was 15 years old back then- and my mummy juggled as a housewife and a part time cleaner.

Soon, I was old enough to finally graduate from my high school to enter university. My peers wondered why I was so thrifty for counting every penny that I had in my pocket. Every penny I had was the hard earned money mummy saved for us. If all these pennies were made out of sweat and blood of our parents, hoping to provide us with a comfortable life- Would we still spend it carelessly without a second thought? I was 20 back then- and mummy was the person I missed dearly.

Throughout my time studying in Taiwan, my life has its own ups and downs. I started to reminisce all the carefree childhood memories I had. While I was working hard overcoming obstacles to achieve my dreams, mummy was getting older and older. Little did we realize that we are the slave of time, always chasing after time, while forgetting to enjoy all the things at this very present moment.

Indeed, mummy was right. This aphorism “Let us appreciate, be grateful for, and repay the love of our parents’ has always been sow into my heart at tender age of 5.  In the hustle and bustle of life, this aphorism has always reminded me to stop, breathe, and think of my mummy. I am 23 years old now- and mummy was still the childhood idol that I have always looked up to, even without the red lipstick.

Dear mummy, I may have never said, “I love you”, in real life, but I will always appreciate, be grateful and repay the love of yours.

I love you, mummy.

【第六屆】106學年度靜思語與我的生命故事徵文比賽_第二名_宗研一_朴珉洙_好奇與想知道――靜思語「做中學,學中覺」

歲月如梭,來臺灣很快地兩月過去了……在學校宿舍房間裡,我翻開以前的舊照片,突然間,我看到一張難忘的照片,想起去年老師帶硏究所同學們到在韓國北漢山玩的情形。
 
那天我們到達北漢山國家公園後,邊跑邊走,老師帶我們爬上最刺激、最酷的頂端!當時一片人山人海,大家都興高采烈地在排隊,而我卻一副戰戰兢兢的表情。輪到我要登上最頂端的看臺去拍照時,我開始心跳加速、臉色蒼白、手腳發軟!
 
就在非常害怕的當下,我突然睜開眼,俯瞰整個北漢山地區,首爾市景一覽無遺,又可遠眺南山、俯瞰漢江、山城。感覺好美啊!我滿臉笑容對著照相機,希望能留下美美的照片。大家的頭髮都被山風吹亂了,但我們都開心地大笑了出來。
 
經過這次的經驗,我才體會到和天地自然的合一的樂趣,這是一種內心自然而生的感覺。下山時,經歷刺激的俯衝、翻滾,同學們感到非常愉快、輕鬆,這個美好的回憶,我到現在都還留在腦海中,不會忘記!
 
在臺灣,我住在學校宿舍,星期一到星期五都會待在這個地方,陌生的生活環境中難免都有一些事讓我很苦。雖然我在大學是硏究所學生,可是卻有如在國小五年級時候的感覺,可能是我的年齡比同學較年長問題吧。
 
每天我自己問:「你過得好嗎?」 我自己回答:「哈!哈!哈!」
 
但當一個人有了「自主」的想法,隨之而來的便是:選擇的煩惱和承擔的責任。因為,只有我自己,才有資格,以及義務,對我的學習負責。
 
就這樣在每天讀書與生活當中,過了一個月。有一天,慈懿日與師長及同學聚餐後,我的硏究所同學帶我去了靜思精舍。我不是一個佛教徒,走進大殿之前,在內心總是有著好奇的共感!精舍的空間不大,卻是常住眾與發心回來出力的各地菩薩的「家」,而我是用客人來到的心情;可是,這裡卻有一種「回家」的感覺,而且我也能接受這種內心自然產生的感覺。
 
那個時候我在想,我真誠地好奇與想知道事實的價值,我不是佛教徒耶……然而,慈濟導覽志工卻對我說:「別擔心那些了,你只需要保持你原本的信仰,你的信仰還是如同以前一樣。」我了解這是現實的,不是所有人都是受到菩薩的引導的。
 
但慢慢的我醒悟到,雖然我不是佛教徒也不是慈濟人,但希望所有人都能夠感受得到,而且相信慈濟所做的這一切都是真的。對靜思精舍成員們而言,這似乎成為了「勇氣」的標誌。有些人說這就是「愛」,對,這些事我都知道,但這不會影響我的信仰(我不知道我有沒有信仰心)。
 
當然,再更進一步詢問相關信仰問題的細節時,這些志工並非真的知曉所有的一切,或只是將這些事情下意識地忽略,不願意更仔細的觀察信仰何種宗教及教派問題,他們如此說道:「我個人的見證對我而言即已足夠。」(見證比信仰或教派更重要)
 
所以,我必須承認我曾經也是如此,好奇與想知道事實的價值是一種「染」,以繒為色也。所謂染,對於布料而言,是改頭換面的契機;對人生而言,是一生得失的記載。世界就像一個大染坊,生活可謂最好的染缸,而點滴瑣事則是五顏六色的染料。
 
人之初,就像一疋不染一塵的白緞,擁有一縷純淨無瑕的靈魂,本性純善,冰清玉潔。奈何種種不定因素,卻將自己和別人塑成了不同的人格,使得我們因習相遠。
 
〈愛蓮說〉中,蓮出淤泥而不染。我們縱然無法孤芳如蓮,沾染顏色無可避免,然而可慶的是,我們到底不是任染匠擺弄的布,而是能夠自主的生命,有權選擇自己的色澤,自己的歸屬,自己的追求。
 
染色的過程中,或許會有敗筆,人非聖賢,孰能無過?知錯能改,善莫大焉。用錯了顏色不要緊,要緊的是知錯而無動於衷,將錯就錯。然而,我雖可在染料風乾後重新著色,但卻還是虛耗了光陰,等待陽光晾乾布料。新的染料可以掩過舊的汙跡,但卻遮不住錯過的痕跡,那是我曾經犯錯的紀錄,就這樣留了下來,永恆不去。
 
正如生活中,多少人誤入歧途,即便重歸正道,卻無法抹去曾經的汙點,也挽不回虛度的時光。就這樣,那匹原本純白的布料,不偏不倚地將點滴一筆筆記錄下來。
 
事實就是事實,證嚴法師及常住師父秉持「為佛教、為眾生」的理念,自成立之初,即不間斷的為眾生演示「做中學,學中覺」的意義;秉持著「一日不作,一日不食」自立更生的精神,謹守靜思法脈,護持為善的一念心來弘揚慈濟宗門。
 
靜思精舍不只是一個傳播善的場所,也是充滿「愛」的人間道場。
我可以想像自己於年前的反映,若現在有朋友在靜思精舍裡與我相遇,和以前我在街上的另一邊看到這位好朋友的那種感受是不同的。

【第六屆】106學年度靜思語與我的生命故事徵文比賽_第三名_東語四_涂依欣_有福的孩子

每當手機鈴聲響起,瞥見螢幕上的聯絡人照片時,才猛然一驚:啊!已經好久沒有打電話回家了。
龍應台《目送》一書中有這樣一段話,寫家長陪伴孩子成長的心境:「我慢慢地、慢慢地了解到,所謂父女母子一場,只不過意味著,你和他的緣分就是今生今世不斷地在目送他的背影漸行漸遠。」每每讀來總覺傷感,其實父母和子女之間就是這樣相互目送,真正能相聚相伴的時間卻是少之又少。
爸爸不算是嚴肅的人,甚至稱得上是幽默風趣,但不知為何,自從高中離家讀書後,我開始無法自在地對著他撒撒嬌、分享生活點滴,總有一股彆扭的情緒,上了大學甚至連電話都少打了。直到接觸硬筆字之後,為了練習字體我開始寄信,給朋友給長輩,寫給父母的最多:最近要辦哪些活動、考試週快到了、下次要什麼時候才能回家等等,諸如此類的絮絮叨叨,筆隨心轉,只想著用一種最舒服自在的方式來傳遞我的消息,讓父母安心。
驚訝的是,後來有一天爸爸回信了,連著一箱自家栽種的芒果一起寄到宿舍,其實信件內容也就是家庭日常及鼓勵之語,但邊吃芒果邊看信,我卻有:「文字竟然跟芒果一樣香甜」的奇妙感受,原來,父母對我的愛是如此含蓄而包容。靜思語說:「讓父母安心的孩子才有福」,或許以前我覺得周而復始的學生生活並沒有什麼好說,就從沒想著要主動與家人分享,卻沒想到家人只是擔心我們過的好不好。
時間的腳步從不曾為誰停留,於是我學會打打電話、寫寫信,我相信即便人生是互相目送的過程,也能是安心、溫暖的;更相信日常生活的瑣碎片段,都可以託付給言語或文字,它定能將那些消息輕輕巧巧的送達家人手中。

【第六屆】106學年度靜思語與我的生命故事徵文比賽_佳作_醫資一_黃宇婷_人要克服難,不要被難克服

    大家都說,「這是一個奇跡。」
    那一年,爸爸突然暈倒,經過確診,爸爸是得了T淋巴細胞白血病。這個消息猶如晴天霹靂,一時間,家裡似乎是被陰霾籠罩著的,毫無光明。
    住院、吃藥、打吊瓶成了爸爸的日常。我也逐漸習慣了醫院裡濃濃消毒水的味道、身著白大褂走來走去的醫生護士、病床上痛苦呻吟的病人。大大小小的管子插在爸爸身體各處,它們似乎在得意地宣告著它們佔領的一切。
皺著眉頭、垂頭喪氣不是爸爸的作風,即使在病床上,談天說地、鬼臉搞怪,似乎跟平常沒有什麼不同,仍然是我那個愛笑愛說話的爸爸。
然而媽媽偷偷告訴我,爸爸經常會在夜裡因為疼痛而睡不著覺。經常會覺得飯菜食之無味也依然強迫自己吞進去。他積極配合治療,再苦再痛也默默承受,他說他必須堅強,他一定要好起來,因為他有一個家。
    我也曾見過,爸爸的鼻血突然湧出,他輕輕喚我,讓我幫他拿紙。那一瞬間我心如刀絞,跌跌撞撞沖向廁所,手忙腳亂地抓了一大堆紙遞給爸爸。我的腦袋一片空白,全身被恐懼充斥,在這來回短短的路中,我仿佛窒息在深海中。我能做些什麼幫幫爸爸?
在病痛之中仍然面帶笑容,任何一切都無法將他擊垮,他一定是個勇士。這是對生命的渴望——像是春天裡要破土而出的小芽,拼盡全力。
    或許是爸爸的笑容驅趕走了陰霾,或許是堅強的意志力和樂觀的心態代替了痛苦。这位勇士手握長劍將病魔擊垮了。他總是用他的經歷鼓勵著其他的病友,他說,“有時是我們的害怕讓自己的處境愈加艱難。”
    “人要克服難,不要被難克服。”於是我懂得,在遇到困難之時,只要不要害怕,勇敢面對,刀山火海也無法阻擋我們前進,終有一天,我們會滿身傷痕卻面帶微笑地來到繁花盛放的彼岸。
我的爸爸是個英雄。

【第六屆】106學年度靜思語與我的生命故事徵文比賽_佳作_華語中心_Jennifer鄧燕妮_Being a Filial Daughter

How can a child not love their own parents? In fact, the parents have given their love to the child? But in this life, there are things unexplainable. I love my father a lot, but not my mother. Even though my mother is the one who take care us her children the most, but I don't know why my love for her is not as great as my love for my father. And it got worse after the passing of my father. I put the blame on my mother for making my Dad’s life unhappy, just because I saw her too demanding to my father. This is my own opinion, of course, but this kind of feeling keeps fulfilling my heart and mind. As the result, I often quarrel with my mother and not obeying her words. I become a bad daughter to her. I even often thinking to live far from her. I may not hate my mother, but I also cannot give my love to her.

In 2009, I have a chance to join the Indonesian Tzu Chi as volunteer. Ever since then, I keep noticing this Jing Si Aphorism by Master Cheng Yen: “There are two things in the world that cannot be postponed: first is to be filial, and second is to do good” (世上有两件事不能等一是孝順,二是行善). At first, I didn’t have any special attention or feelings to this Jing Si Aphorism even though this aphorism is the most talked and used during my volunteering activity in Tzu Chi. Until one day I saw the DAAI drama about a wife who is very patient to his husband, even though the husband has treated her bad. I remember when her friend asked this woman why she can be that patient and treat her husband good, this woman said that maybe she has done something bad to her husband in their past life, and in this life, she need to pay her debt to him. She doesn’t want to continue make a new debt to her husband, so that’s why she accepts all the bad treatment from her husband with a grateful heart. This drama is like opening my heart. As a Buddhist, I understand that we all bounded by karmic relations. Why I can be a daughter of my mother, it is for sure because of the karmic relation, either it is good or bad. After seeing this drama, when once again I see this Jing Si Aphorism: “There are two things in the world that cannot be postponed: first is to be filial, and second is to do good”, I started to think and put a deep contemplation. Why Master Cheng Yen saying this aphorism? Why the first should be to be filial? My mother and I may have debt each other, and non-good relationship in our past life, but whatever it is, it maybe just my own thinking and it is just a past, I shouldn’t think about it. I should live in the present moment. And it is fact, that my mother had carried me in her womb for about nine months, she even put her life in danger while giving birth to me. She lost her beauty, her own health, time and everything to take care and raising me, her only daughter. She had given me a healthy body that I should be grateful for. With all this sacrifice, I realize even being filial not enough to pay her back. Since then I try to treat my mother good, and being a filial daughter. I know I still far of being filial, but I feel grateful that I have a chance to try my best to be a good daughter until my mother’s last breath. It is true that there are two things in the world that cannot be postponed: first is to be filial, yes, because you don’t have enough time to be grateful for the life that your parents gave you.  And the second is to do good, because who will know how long someone’s life? When will you die and leave this world. You need to do good to make a good karmic relation, so your life will be meaningful and leave no regret. I feel grateful that this Jing Si Aphorism has changed my life, and left no remorse in me for not being filial to my mother. I grateful for Master Cheng Yen whose remind me through this aphorism. 感恩上人

【第六屆】106學年度靜思語與我的生命故事徵文比賽_佳作_醫資四_吳奕昕_以菩薩心去愛伴侶

我媽媽曾經跟我說,另一半叫做「冤親債主」,是來討債的。過去一直無視這些忠告,以為怎麼可能會有這樣的關係,直到真的遇到一位,他和我是完全不一樣的兩個人,觀念不同、想法不同、個性不同、看事情的角度也不同,甚至連溝通的方式也不同,導致這段感情走得非常坎坷。
 
每當我計較著他對我不如我的預期,曾經非常痛苦、甚至想過要放棄。但是透過種種磨合與調整,其實在這些日子,不可否認的,我學習到很多。我開始反省自己,為什麼會覺得痛苦?每當我對他還保有期待,希望他能怎麼做怎麼做時,往往就會有更強大的,落空的失望與不滿的情緒交疊。希望自己應該如何如何被對待、等等,想要一段美好的關係,感覺上是很困難的一件事情。
 
一次的志工早會,聽到證嚴上人的開示:「我們的凡夫,大部份都是假情,愛的去跳樓那也是假的,愛到,沒有你我會怎樣,這也是假的。因為被愛的對方也很辛苦,愛的自己也非常煩惱,這種彼此困擾,這哪是真愛呢。」突然仔細想想,種種的「我」、「我想的」、「我要的」,就會看透,真正導致我痛苦的,不是這個人,而是我自己陷入了自己的執著。
 
上人提醒了我,我們應該愛出那一分真誠,愛得對方快樂,愛得自己自在,這就是真誠的菩薩愛。當我想到,證嚴上人也曾經說過「要用菩薩的心去愛自己的子女,要用父母的心去愛天下的眾生」。
 
我忽然醒悟:何不用菩薩的心去對待對方呢?頓時我的心態就不同了,即使每段關係不免都有摩擦,但是這也是我學習應對的好地方,何況說不定他是出現到我面前,來教導我的一位人間菩薩?
 
佛說:前世五百年的回眸才換來今生的擦肩而過。緣分緣散,有的人偶然邂逅,只是人生旅途中的一個影子,匆匆掠過;但是有的人卻能成為知己,甚至能成為自己的終身伴侶,緣分真的得來不易。
 
三世一切佛,一切唯心造、境隨心轉,突然自己的煩惱也就化開了,雖然我很難遇到一個最適合的對象,但是如果我能從相處中,學習佛陀的善巧與慈悲,不管在未來,甚至工作上,面對每一個人,相信都能找出一套對彼此都適合的相處模式。很感恩 上人教我佛法的慈悲與智慧,更感恩靜思語讓我重新認識自己、可以讓我更珍惜他。

【第六屆】106學年度靜思語與我的生命故事徵文比賽_佳作_東語日一_袁慶宸_「孝」的真諦

   自小,我就是生活在一個處處提及的孝道的家庭,但對於這一事,我的父母從來都是身體力行勝過言語傳孝的表率。
   我是個高雄出生的花蓮人,在準備升國小一年級的暑假,一家人搬到了外公居住的花蓮,搬家的原因是媽媽因為顧及到外公的年事已高,身為兒女的她有義務照顧外公的半輩子。但因為工作而無法整天親自照料,覺得力不從心的媽媽,請了外傭。可好景不常,礙於外傭的手腳再三的不乾淨,媽媽還是決定將她解雇,並且辭去當時的職業。
   約莫國小四、五年級時,外公的身體狀況漸漸不如以往,吃飯、洗澡都像個孩子一樣需要有人在旁照理,三餐也都是媽媽親力親為的手作鮮食,並且一口一口地餵食;而換尿布和洗澡則是爸爸所負責,每每到了洗澡時間,爸爸總會攙扶著外公到浴室,再輕聲和外公閒聊這一整天的瑣事。
   升上了國中時,因為身邊的朋友而讓忘了小時候我對的初衷,開始覺得對父母頂嘴並無傷大雅,也經常和父母的大小聲說話,一時之間受到很大打擊的媽媽更經常在半夜的時候啜泣。
  直到有天爸爸寫了張字條給我,上面寫道«孝經»的紀孝行章第十,以及靜思語的「父母是堂上活菩薩,是真正能接受扶養,能讓我造福靈感的活佛。」,頓時而讓我有所悟,更深深地和父母懺悔曾經的所作所為。
  父母即是堂上的活菩薩,而堂上雙親不敬,一心拜神也無。這就是靜思語給我的省悟以及體會,畢竟作爲兒女,孝養父母,不僅是提供物質所需,還要給予精神的幫助、安撫,令父母身心快樂才是真正的孝順。